Dear....

Dear ________,
I like you. I like you in ways I never liked someone else.
It's so stupid. Why did you have to do this to me.
There are days I can be so over you and there are days I can see you
and my hearts forgets to beat and my eyes forget to blink.
My lungs forget to inhale and for a moment I left the world. At least that's
what it seems like. Right now I am unsure of what I want from you, but I know
that I do want you. In some way or form. I told you this before, so I'm pretty sure
that you know. However I am totally unclear on what is that you feel. On one hand
I can believe that you have these same feelings but on the other it could
all have been a game. I do believe that we have a chemistry that is strong and
undeniable. I believe that we both want the same thing on different levels. I'm
not trying to rush anything that is not wanted or unsure. If we could start over,
I think that would be a good idea. It is up to you. I think whatever we have between
us is crazy/beautiful. By the way, this elementary school fronting that we do is stupid!
I'm ready to stop when you are, if you are. I am really scared to even do what I'm thinking,
however I am trying to take risk and do what my heart tells me. I like you.

Sincerely,
Samantha.

Venting...

Seriously, I have been stuck with these thoughts in my head for the last couple months and its getting overwhelming. I seriously don't know what to do with them. I figure if these thoughts are recurring then I need to act on them. My only fear is what would happen after the fact. However I am very fond of this quote, "Replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity." I am young and I should explore all that life throws at me and life keeps throwing this same ball at me. My only thing is that I don't want to misread this for something else. I don't know. You only live once, and this is the time to live right? I just don't wanna live stupidly.

Type Deep...

“There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.” ~Laurell K. Hamilton (Incubus Dreams)

#DAYUMM!!

So I'm watching this video, already knowing its gonna go side ways but it really was kind of sad. You could definitely tell tht homie did oh-girl wrong. That was the only reason he was purposing to her. Smh so sad. Marriage has come to this in 2011. I really believe the whole meaning of "love" and "marriage" is just some stupid concept made by man. Anyways, you tell me...

The Proposal from Mims Media on Vimeo.

Clearing Out My Mind...Interlude

Lately I've been meaning to blog, but really haven't a minute to do so. So I'm not going get right into what I've been wanting to talk about but I'll give some general statements. This is only a interlude. In the past few weeks, I've had a lot of epiphanies, revelations, change of thoughts and I've just been trying to get it all together. A lot of it has been towards relationships and sex. Yep, what else right? lol. Psh anyways. My main epiphany was that I should live my life cause I only will live it once. I got this damn epiphany from a movie (Fast Five). It really hit me though. I don't know why then all of sudden. But its true nonetheless. There is "something" I wanna do with a certain "someone" and I looked at it from a new perspective. One that isn't covered in my morals or values. Not to say that this decision would compromise my morals. I don't think that it does. If you want to be with someone and thats your choice, what you want, then it shouldn't. YOU LIVE LIFE ONCE! I can get hit by a friggin' meteor tomorrow and die! Like die. If I don't do the things that I think about and want to enjoy I'll be in heaven with all these regrets.I mean I don't think its that serious but u get my drift. I'm here waiting around for some damn fairytale and more than likely its not coming! Its not. My mom never put no fairytales in my head. Neither did my aunt. They always tell me the raw deal about the world of relationship. Lord knows why I have these secret thoughts of falling in love (yes, falling in love. I said sceret), having this great fulfilling relationship with this great guys and have this romantic future. I listen to too many damn rnb songs. But yeah how I see it is that he isn't coming. The person I thought to be that person was a damn facade! #truestory. And the person that is the "someone" I have no idea what we are doing. But I know i do "want" that person. I wouldn't mind doing that "something" only if it would be significant....TO BE CONTINUED...

#NiceStyle

So, I'm pretty sure yall know the new song "Girls (Who Run the World) by Beyonce. Today is suppose to be the airing of the new video. I thought I found it on youtube but this is someone else video version of it. Its not a video video but its very creative. The way the girls were dressed in this video was pretty awesome. It was a nice sexy, urban flare. The choreography was BANANAS! Y'all should really check it out! Watch the whole thing, I'm sure you will like it. I wanna start dressing like that lol. Seriously tho -__- lol

Need a Good laugh?

So about 2, 3 weeks ago I was put on to the funniest ish ever! These 4 guys call themselves, "Dormtainment" and they are hilarious! They do these well put together skits in their dorms and they are soo friggin hilarious.

This is their site: http://dormtainment.com/

Highly recommended videos to watch are:

Jamaicans will dance

Trading Places

Pretty Girl rock

The Word Bitch

This is to0o0 cute!