Clearing Out My Mind...Interlude

Lately I've been meaning to blog, but really haven't a minute to do so. So I'm not going get right into what I've been wanting to talk about but I'll give some general statements. This is only a interlude. In the past few weeks, I've had a lot of epiphanies, revelations, change of thoughts and I've just been trying to get it all together. A lot of it has been towards relationships and sex. Yep, what else right? lol. Psh anyways. My main epiphany was that I should live my life cause I only will live it once. I got this damn epiphany from a movie (Fast Five). It really hit me though. I don't know why then all of sudden. But its true nonetheless. There is "something" I wanna do with a certain "someone" and I looked at it from a new perspective. One that isn't covered in my morals or values. Not to say that this decision would compromise my morals. I don't think that it does. If you want to be with someone and thats your choice, what you want, then it shouldn't. YOU LIVE LIFE ONCE! I can get hit by a friggin' meteor tomorrow and die! Like die. If I don't do the things that I think about and want to enjoy I'll be in heaven with all these regrets.I mean I don't think its that serious but u get my drift. I'm here waiting around for some damn fairytale and more than likely its not coming! Its not. My mom never put no fairytales in my head. Neither did my aunt. They always tell me the raw deal about the world of relationship. Lord knows why I have these secret thoughts of falling in love (yes, falling in love. I said sceret), having this great fulfilling relationship with this great guys and have this romantic future. I listen to too many damn rnb songs. But yeah how I see it is that he isn't coming. The person I thought to be that person was a damn facade! #truestory. And the person that is the "someone" I have no idea what we are doing. But I know i do "want" that person. I wouldn't mind doing that "something" only if it would be significant....TO BE CONTINUED...