Dear....

Dear ________,
I like you. I like you in ways I never liked someone else.
It's so stupid. Why did you have to do this to me.
There are days I can be so over you and there are days I can see you
and my hearts forgets to beat and my eyes forget to blink.
My lungs forget to inhale and for a moment I left the world. At least that's
what it seems like. Right now I am unsure of what I want from you, but I know
that I do want you. In some way or form. I told you this before, so I'm pretty sure
that you know. However I am totally unclear on what is that you feel. On one hand
I can believe that you have these same feelings but on the other it could
all have been a game. I do believe that we have a chemistry that is strong and
undeniable. I believe that we both want the same thing on different levels. I'm
not trying to rush anything that is not wanted or unsure. If we could start over,
I think that would be a good idea. It is up to you. I think whatever we have between
us is crazy/beautiful. By the way, this elementary school fronting that we do is stupid!
I'm ready to stop when you are, if you are. I am really scared to even do what I'm thinking,
however I am trying to take risk and do what my heart tells me. I like you.

Sincerely,
Samantha.

Venting...

Seriously, I have been stuck with these thoughts in my head for the last couple months and its getting overwhelming. I seriously don't know what to do with them. I figure if these thoughts are recurring then I need to act on them. My only fear is what would happen after the fact. However I am very fond of this quote, "Replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity." I am young and I should explore all that life throws at me and life keeps throwing this same ball at me. My only thing is that I don't want to misread this for something else. I don't know. You only live once, and this is the time to live right? I just don't wanna live stupidly.