Good Girl Fighting the world

I definitely tryna to keep up with this blogging cause I do enjoy it. Last night I got a few reactions from my last post. I didn't realize that people even really looked or paid attention. One viewer, I was kinda embarrassed, had viewed it. ::bbm blush face::

After I found out, I had a conversation with a good friend of mine, not going to say any names. The person brought to my eyes that I may be closed hearted. Its weird cuz I heard this before. I actually heard this from a guy I use to only talk to. My thing is that I wasn't sure if I was closed hearted to the person I was last in a relationship with. I don't think so. From the inside looking out I don't think so but if am I had no clue. Its definitely not my intension to be closed heart. I look at it this way: An open heart is like an open wound. I really do believe that I am cursed. The moment I let me guard down and let happiness come in, the universe snatches it away. DEADDDD ASSSS!!I even wrote a poem about it. I mean i don't know why and frankly I stopped caring.
Back to the conversation me and my friend had. So me and her are oh so pretty, very smart, don't have kids, don't smoke, don't drink...like that lol (I quit), and aren't sluts. So we wonder why we can't find a good relationship with a good guy. Not to say we haven't, cuz I def experienced one good relationship, which I'm happy about. It just seems like I'm more alone and sad rather than in a happy relationship. See now, I learned to cope with it, sad truth. What we tryna figure out is why we keep seeing NON-EDUCATED, GHETTO, FUGLY females with good dudes. I don't get it! A couple...a few of us don't get it. My last relationship, I felt very much appreciated it, more than I ever had, but I'm not gonna dwell on that. My question is: Is the power of the P U S S Y that serious? Cuz damn! I learned to tap in to my pretty girl swag early this year lol. I'm back on it now. But just wondering? Is that what make relationships last or work? Sex? Cuz maybe thats where I've been messing up lol. And if thats the case, imma be alone for a while longer. I'll tell u this tho, my husband, or even my "hubby" gonna be the luckiest man in the world.
I do kno people that have good relationships and they good looking couples, maybe every person is different. However I still believe that the world is one big game that every one is playing. I refuse to play. If I'm looked at sideways cuz I don't sleep with guys, smoke, drink, and I like to read, oh well. Yall jus pushing me closer to Mario lol....I'm not done this is just what I had in mind today.

Sex first, love later?